negativity you don't need.

edit: before you continue reading. i save frustrations like these for my blog. mind you, i wouldn't dare lash out like that ingame. it's too compromising.

ingame,

i'm friggin lonely.

large proportion of my friends who still log on are away. the rest of the players on my friends list are, for the most part, egotistical suck ups i can't rightly stand to have a conversation with. i've had enough of false faces now to concentrate on training my skiller and blogging. (bear in mind, my skiller's only three days old, and has 28 mining, 16 smithing, 7 crafting and counting.)

it's not loneliness born of being ignored. it's the loneliness in logging in and being greeted with heys from three people who aren't even on your friends list, and whom you deleted from there long ago for reasons that you meant to be obvious to the both of you. (of course, the fact that they're only saying hey because that's how you greet people doesn't exactly do wonders either.)

in a particularly foul mood the other day, i simply ignored them. especially the guy who either can't count the appropriate number of exclamation or question marks necessary, or has an entirely too twitchy ring finger. of course i feel bad immediately afterwards, and reply the next i log in. i am just waiting for that person obnoxious enough to call me "friend" after making demands so unreasonable i was about to put him on ignore to ask why i don't respond. i'll reply sweetly "i'm sorry, it was kind of crowded back there, so i had to put my private chat on friends..."

if that isn't heavy-handed enough, i don't know what is.

perhaps the missive i blasted at the guy who happened to get (mistakenly, i'll admit) what was coming to a newer (more deserving too) annoyance might've done a better job. he'd been pestering me to add some guy, cooo[undetermined number of o's]ool xx, apparently a good friend of his. for some reason he refused (or simply lacked the capacity) to understand why i refused to add him. first off, someone with a name like that doesn't sound all too simulating a conversationalist. (not that i told him that much. i'm not that insensitive.) what i did tell him "you do realise even you aren't on my freinds list, i add you as and when you pm me. no offense, but if your friend has any questions, tell him to feel free to pm me, i'll do the same for him."

i cannot stand those people whom i soo feel like asking "do you need anything, or have i just been landed with another pest with a ego so hugely inflated i can't see past it to begin with?"

obvious lonliness isn't nearly so bad as knowing that everyone you're surrounded by has teeth.