why.

sometimes i wonder why i play runescape. then again, it's usually not so much me not knowing as me playing for such a long while without needing to know that i lose sight of it.

like this whole day, for example.

i've played for a good three hours, in toto. on my skiller, because it's fun just to talk without the weight of that hanging over (besides your head), your every word. (the wrecking the stereotype that all level 3s are macros and n00bs doesn't aid much in the get-off-this-account-and-rs-already! hype.) the fact that it's a rare monday public holiday also factors.

and after a while, it gets boring. sure. it gets pointless (though i dissuade myself with the justification for creating that account in the first place). and that's what i mean by losing sight.

then wham everything comes together.

i play rs for the same reason some people fantasise, or read books. it's a satisfactory enough escape from some things real. when i talk people can't see the anger seething just below the surface of each word, can't see the tears.

when i type happy, people think i'm happy, and then i become happy too.

or at the very least, calm.

i don't play rs for fun very much, anymore.